Remember the post I wrote a couple of weeks ago about the fact that I am getting divorced? Yeah, of course you do.
Well the flip side of that is I’m single. Sort of. Not legally able to get married at this point (thank god), but able to date. Something I am just a tiny bit out of practice on…which makes me over think it.
And while doing so, it dawns on me, that my life isn’t exactly private.
Clearly I do not have a ‘public’ life on camera, but once you know my name….well….you can Google me. And that gives you access to A LOT. Not every single part of my life, but LOTS of it. 40 pages of entries with my name on them. My writing. Video. Comments.
And that makes me nervous. Why?
Because, there is no way to avoid the “I have three children” conversation, let alone “I have three special needs children”, and worse yet, there is NO way to minimize the chaos that is my life. I cannot even attempt to sugar coat it. And last time I checked, you are supposed to put your proverbial ‘best foot forward’ on a date… Leading with my boys’ acronyms isn’t the way I would choose to start.
Which makes me slightly more than nervous.
So let’s assume if my hypothetical date wanted to know about me, he may have Googled me. That means that when I walk into meet him - whether that is the first or second (or more?) time I've seen him, he has a big head start on the getting to know you part. AND he may be scared. Overwhelmed. Something, right? I mean have you read my blog?!
My point is that it never dawned on me I would be single and have my whole life – out there.
But I do.
So, for any potential suitors out there that have stumbled onto this post after Googling me before a date, please be kind. My boys are my life. And they are AWESOME.
Also, thank you. Because my husband hasn’t read my blog or anything else I’ve written in years, so in a way it is flattering that you are interested enough in what I do that you would read my blog.
Flattering and terrifying.
And for all of the HLW3B readers out there who are reading this, leave a comment for my potential new boyfriend so that he knows I am NOT crazy, and that having special kiddos - with quirks and special interests - does have an upside!